Post workout!!

Hey 👋 Poppy!! I know its been a hot minute, and life has been up and down lately, and sometimes, I don’t know if I am coming or going . Anyways, as you probably know, I have been working on hard staying tire to myself, with eating and working out.

Yes, I know some days are harder than others, but TBT I have been doing it even when I am totally exhausted.

As you can properly see my face is thinning out again…I know I know I know! Still have long way to go but am proud of me for doing this for almost 2 months straight now….keeping on the gravy train to what I am not sure..but just know I am pushing thru all my inner turmoil I feel.

I sure do you miss you laughing and dancing to help me keep the smile and positive thoughts. OH well!

Yes, been working long hours and still feel like I am behind the bus instead of in front of the bus. Tonight was a good night.

Took my sister to her appointment then we had a dinner date, so that was nice…I really need to get a life Poppy, I don’t have one. I just sit in my house and dwell on the what if’’s and what not’s.. Life is harder without you in to help me get to the park, out the house and live in the world.

I just sit in my house and think I should go out and enjoy the day. But then say what the HELL For….!!!! I know. I did not realize how much I became a hermit till my sister had her knee surgery and then I had to get dressed to drive Nana and Grandpa to appointments the store and such. It was eye opening to say the least. Oh well. Soon, she will be back to driving and then I will feel unwanted again. Or maybe not. We shall see.

Any ways. Love you. Miss you so much!

It hard being single when everyone is a couple and have friends and friends to do things.

I did go to Sean birthday party…was proud of myself. It was hard. But I did it!

Love you,

Panda!